Thursday, September 21, 2006
Quickly, Pacifinger! This baby needs to be pacified!
Today will go down in history as the first day that both Christine and i got to fall asleep while holding the baby. At seperate points in time, but still, pretty significant. There was no bathing while she and i were there, hopefully someone did it after we left.
We look at her with a different emphasis now, it seems. Every aspect of her appearance and behavior i find myself analyzing closely and then oftentimes asking a nurse about it, whatever "it" is. Tomorrow Christine and i will be asking the geneticist and the neonatologist some hopefully direct and moderately specific questions about Tuesday. I'm not gonna list them here because they're not happy questions.
I saw another parent in the NICU today, a mom, who's baby is a premie. She is there a lot. She doesn't get to hold her kid much because he's too little and premies aren't supposed to get held until they reach a certain age. She was sitting in the waiting area today while a pair of nurses did a procedure on her little son. She looked worried. She has looked worried just about every time i've seen her. I see so many other parents there, i've even seen parents come and go at this point, and after a few days or so of getting used to the idea of having a baby in the NICU they all tend to get pretty upbeat and smiley. I would, i will ignorantly say, trade places with any of those parents. I would easily, without a moment's hesitation, take having Tuesday be genetically whole and born early over having her born on time and missing a chunk of chromosome. Something tells me that mom i see in there so much would feel the same way.
I'll make use of Christine's suggestion and end with this, pardon the language:
"Normal babies are fucking miracles."
Today will go down in history as the first day that both Christine and i got to fall asleep while holding the baby. At seperate points in time, but still, pretty significant. There was no bathing while she and i were there, hopefully someone did it after we left.
We look at her with a different emphasis now, it seems. Every aspect of her appearance and behavior i find myself analyzing closely and then oftentimes asking a nurse about it, whatever "it" is. Tomorrow Christine and i will be asking the geneticist and the neonatologist some hopefully direct and moderately specific questions about Tuesday. I'm not gonna list them here because they're not happy questions.
I saw another parent in the NICU today, a mom, who's baby is a premie. She is there a lot. She doesn't get to hold her kid much because he's too little and premies aren't supposed to get held until they reach a certain age. She was sitting in the waiting area today while a pair of nurses did a procedure on her little son. She looked worried. She has looked worried just about every time i've seen her. I see so many other parents there, i've even seen parents come and go at this point, and after a few days or so of getting used to the idea of having a baby in the NICU they all tend to get pretty upbeat and smiley. I would, i will ignorantly say, trade places with any of those parents. I would easily, without a moment's hesitation, take having Tuesday be genetically whole and born early over having her born on time and missing a chunk of chromosome. Something tells me that mom i see in there so much would feel the same way.
I'll make use of Christine's suggestion and end with this, pardon the language:
"Normal babies are fucking miracles."
posted by jonathan @ 7:40 PM
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